Pursuit of happiness

Back to that happy-go-lucky Letso we all know... :D So I'm still on that Kid Cudi tip, trying to pursue happiness.

So is life all about trying to figure what makes you happy and what grates your titties and working hard at avoiding the former...

Or is it about going to school getting that paper then finally going out there to get the other paper that can afford you a good wife and good things...

Or is it about going with the flow and hopefully land up at the right place and the right time and getting discovered by the same nikka that found Alek  Wek and turned her into the most sought after model...Yes? No?

We see so many people, especially in Joburg, lead lives that are almost unreal (like that guy/girl you went to high school with and 4yrs later you see him/her (usually her) at your local mall and they start throwing you with some hectic British accent that's miraculously been put together right here e'Mzansi) shocked out of your mind, u ask yourself 'kanjani?nini?'. Lol. This is just one of the many things that come up in my mind whenever I think of pretentious people. 

How are you possibly happy living a life that isn't the true reflection of who you are. I definitely have not figured out who I am, at age 22 I figure I'm still young and true happiness and contentment comes with a certain level of maturity. 

During my high school years (2003-2007), I always thought that the day, in fact 'day' is too long. I thought that the second I have a degree and my 1st car, I will be thee happiest person on this planet because that would mean I have a job and I can almost immediately find myself the perfect husband and make myself  the perfect baby and live in a house on Wisteria Lane with a rice white picket fence *hahahahahahahaha*. 

That for me was happiness- or so I thought. Until I stepped out of the school system and that all consuming feeling of freedom filled my mind body and spirit and my small town mentality flew right outta the window. Part of this freedom was that of being able to think out of the box which made me realize and opened my eyes to the different forms of happiness that exist. Now I realize I'm nowhere close to it, for as long as I catch myself frowning, I realize I'm not entirely happy. In fact I do have a degree, I do have a car but I'm still in school and even with the car, I have to sacrifice my entire allowance to ensure that it's well taken care of :(

Since living life as a young adult, I 've come to realize that happiness is not a clear  cut concept, it has so many grey areas and preparing to institute a lawsuit against all children books that end off with 'they left, got married and live happily ever after' it's all a misrepresentation of reality.

Who cares, just do you

So it's been a rather interesting three days in the not-so-fabulous life of Letso. A lot of people responding to me about my previous post titled 'Emotional men'...am I the only one who thought that post was downright hilarious, or maybe I'm just a heartless beast though I beg to differ *sad face.

A lot people found it funny, some people chose to remain on the fence, one beautiful lady went as far as to say it was thought provoking (now that made me raise a brow), of course there were  those who straight up told me I'm bitter and immature and  a classic statement was the guy who said something to the effect of 'omg I woulda never thought she could write anything like this, she's got issues', now this guy can sit in line with those folk who're still waiting for me to give a shit *just saying.

Before I go any further I would like to bring the following facts to the fore: 

Chapter 2 of the South Afican Bill of rights, S16(1) states that:

Everyone has the right to freedom of expression, which includes ­

freedom to receive or impart information or ideas;

freedom of artistic creativity; and

academic freedom and freedom of scientific research.

And S15(1) states that all South African citizens have the right to freedom of conscience, religion, thought, belief and opinion.

So next time I publish a post and whilst reading you find yourself shocked, in awe and thinking 'Letso musta fell and bumped her head before tapping on the 'publish' button', chances are I have, but I actually prefer it that way because the moment I think too hard about what I want to say- that's when I lose the plot. 

Emotional men

Alright what's REALLY bothering women is how childish and immature men can be. Over the past few weeks I've had the displeasure of being exposed to three men who're currently going through fairly recent break-up's. All three of these men are from different walks of life, as a matter of fact they all do not know each other and they all have totally different reasons that have led to their break-up's. 

The 1st is a lawyer who's star sign I don't know but let's pretend he's a Taurus (I hear that lot has beautiful people), he's in his late 20's and reason for the break-up was irreconcilable differences, the 2nd an aspiring Chartered Accountant (CA), a Capricorn and reason is that the girlfriend cheated on him and the 3rd an entertainer, a Leo and reason is he cheated on his girlfriend. One would think that because these men have nothing in common, they'd have different reactions to the unfortunate circumstances they find themselves in...WRONG!!

Following his break-up with a girl he'd been dating for 7-8years, the lawyer not only went on to delete the girl off his BBM but he made sure all her pictures were removed from his fb albums and unfollowed her on twitter *facepalm. As I'm trying to digest all this information, my ill-mannered, thinking aloud scatter brain self blurts out "why the hell would you do that???" and his response was a general "she's not my girl anymore, it's over and I see no reason to talk to her ever again". Stupid.

    

                                     

The aspiring CA however was in a relationship with the stunner for about 2 and a half years and after the break up, he too went on to delete her from Skype, unfollowed her on twitter and of course chucked her off his fb and without fail had a her pictures removed off his fb *deja vu. I could have asked him why but after seeing the Skype contact with his name on it go from the green 'online' sign to a I'm no longer your friend 'question mark' sign- lets just say I got the message loud and clear and I was not going to be that lion-hearted guy that adds salt onto a wound. NO.

                      

Onto the last one, Mr.Entertainer. Not only were they together for about 4 and a half years but they'd moved in together living as man and wife HAPPILY- or so we thought. And this o-so-loud man couldn't wait to broadcast his single status on as many social networks as he could and as if that's not enough he makes it known live on radio. Why? I ask myself...

                          

Men are such odd creatures. I can honestly say that I'm still confused as fuck over their inability to read between the lines. I'm not saying that after a break-up both parties should still go for dinners of have sexual relations or even talk but men should just cut down on the rudeness. Yes, conversations are awkward and strained but you can't throw a girl with a ton of bricks all at once- men should calm down already. What baffles me is how 'they' always make women look psychotic and demented. I bet if any male were to read this, they'd think I'm being crazy and unreasonable. I'm no male basher but the universe constantly fails to give them common sense.

                                      Why so confusing boyzz!!??...

I personally I don't think it's necessary to delete ex's off social networks or phone book (you know we know that u still know the number off by heart). People accept friend requests from strangers in seconds so I find it difficult to understand how a girl the guy supposedly 'loved' gets relegated to less than a stranger in a second or less *shrugs.

As if that's not hectic enough, the aspiring CA went as far as returning all gifts and items he'd received from the girl whilst they were dating. Speechless. 

If there's a man out there who would like to explain to me why men react this way, please reach out to me ASAP.

With that said- I love boys *disclaimer. 

Singleville in the jungle

So I'm back on this blogging steez, being away for so long has taught me so much about life experiences and I can proudly say that in the time that's lapsed between now and the last time and I published a post, life has knocked me down and I still managed to pick myself up or rather I'm in the process of it.
Over the past 6 months, I've loved, I've lost, I've travelled, I've learnt and most importantly I've grown and I just want to share my experiences in this rumble of jungle institution I call 'life'.
In my quest to figure out what life is, I grew accustomed to using astrology to make sense of certain events, what it means to be a Gemini as well as star sign compatibility, of course this could just be me trying to justify why I'm single. With that said, I found out that Gemini's are extroverts, outgoing and get bored easily, especially when they not are given the space to be themselves, I could absolutely relate with that and it seems as though I have not found anyone compatible with my star sign ie.
Aries, Leo, Aquarius and Gemini. Astrology is not the only basis for my views on me and my associations with singleville, but I must say it played a huge role in my justifications.
I've come to the realization that love is not as complicated as people make it out to be, gawddam even I once upon a time thought that it was, but it just takes patience and consideration for the next person which is something I plan to work on the next time I find myself a 'Mr Right-now'. Do I regret conducting myself in a manner that led to me being single? ABSOLUTELY. Am I going to terrorize myself with feelings of guilt and remorse? ABSOLUTELY NOT. I may have a made a mistake here and there but who doesn't I'm human after all, we learn from our mistakes everyday and they make us who we are right? Right!?